You never know what some people are going through. Take Laura Mvula for instance: the rising (no, established) star with a bright future began making huge waves in 2013, scoring a nod for BBC’s Sound Of 2013 and releasing her debut album Sing To The Moon amongst other things. Now, she’s preparing to release her official follow-up, The Dreaming Room, this June and is once again turning heads and ears with her latest single, ‘Overcome‘ (featuring Nile Rodgers). Sitting down with The Guardian, the Birmingham singer-songwriter revealed that, following her parents’ unexpected divorce, she began experiencing anxiety and panic attacks:
At first it was the shortness of breath… Dizziness… Why do I want to run out of the house naked right now? …”[the attacks] began to manifest in different ways. It’s difficult to explain. My body starts spasming, I think I’m going to collapse… Difficulty swallowing sometimes… A feeling of struggling to stay in your skin.
The freak-out in the shower. And I wish that was the term for something good – it’s not. When it happens I feel like my head’s about to explode. So I start shaking it violently, bang the door open, water spills out, this whole episode. When all I want is to have a fucking shower. After that, you have to deal with getting over the shame of calling for help.
As a result, Mvula begin relying heavily on her assistant, family and loved ones for support — including husband Themba Mvula, leading to a strain in their marriage and eventually, divorce:
Naturally, all this was a huge strain on mine and Themba’s marriage. Then, a year ago, we split. I don’t want to say too much more. This anxiety thing is something that has dictated my life. I know it was a factor in my marriage breaking down. I wish that life could be compartmentalised: ‘That was because of that, and that was because of that.’ Really, I’m not sure. It was a combination of lots of things. I would say… quite honestly, that I failed him. I failed him as a wife.
You can read the full feature — courtesy of Tom Lamont — over at The Guardian. The importance of mental health is real, folks.